Grace

When I start going down a road of anger and wishing horrible things upon someone, or cursing them in my head and heart, I am judging them.  I put myself in a higher place.

Today I got really angry.  I started resenting a certain person in my life.  Then I started praying, asking God for help.  Then I heard a small voice inside my head tell me that I am cursing myself when I curse another.  I had never thought of that before.  I asked God how and why?

The gentle answer explained that when I start going down a road of anger and wishing horrible things upon someone, or cursing them in my head and heart, I am judging them.  I put myself in a higher place.  Putting myself in that higher place puts me in a place of more judgement and pressure to perform.  I start to step outside of that place I so desperately need-grace.

So, after shifting mindsets-I consciously moved back into grace. Love. And humility.  I started to bless this person.  I spoke forgiveness out loud and then asked God to help me.  Give me wisdom, help, and show me how to move forward.  

Blessings and curses.  I desire to walk in God's favor, love and kindness.  As I get older it feels like more and more work to keep a tender heart.